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[Aug. 16th, 2006|05:50 pm] |
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I am here its 3 days before people move back into western and i gotta tell ya. Its boring as crap. I need some company. Someone on LJ, let a brotha know if you are in cullowhee if you want to do something. lol I dont care what we do, as long as its legal, and within reason. :P So if you are looking for a good time...( i love that phrase ) leave a comment. |
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[Aug. 5th, 2006|11:12 am] |
Whew! It sure has been awhile since I posted in LJ. I have been doing most of my stuff on myspace but LJ seems like the true bloggin champ. I guess I will use this summer and just do an update...
Well, this summer has been kinda blah and kinda great. The great thing and a bad thing all at once is Steph and I are no longer dating. As much as I disagree with what she is doing now, hey its her life. No matter how dumb I think she is for making those life choices. I will definately respect it. I still care for her and wish for her the best. If you guys are wondering, I was the one who broke up with Steph, the sad part is when i broke up with her. Our friendship got severed too. :/ I started calling her a lot and just really over analyzing every single thing and worry because I thought I was gonna lose her as a friend. Truth to be told, I think I just didnt want someone that I spent a year of my life with everyday practically to be mad at me.
I have finally learned that this summer. No matter how sweet you may be to a person, and no matter how many apologies you give out even if they are 100% sincere. Its hard to change someone's mind once they have their mind made up. I wish for her all the best of luck in this world. Someone asked me if the brotherhood (psp) was gonna be severed because they thought we dont like each other. I can only speak for myself but I dont have a problem with her. I really don't. She makes her own decisions and is older than I am. I will just view her as a phi sigma pi brother and that's it. I am done worrying about her, and I can say this is the first time of the summer. I am truly free. Not from Steph, per se, but more of the fact of learning more how to grow up and be mature. I am 21 years old and I still have immaturity traits, but that is what life is all about. Life is about learning and maturing into something that can be great. I look at it from a positive aspect now and realize, no matter how bad any emotional pain may hurt me. I just know that when joy comes its gonna be even sweeter.
I thank everyone who has supported me through this rough time. Its not hard to imagine someone you once love, even if you break up with them to be kissing another person or whatever else they might be doing. :P To be honest, I am so happy now that I have looked to all my friends and realize how lucky I am to have such wonderful people surrounding me. I was concentrating on my girlfriend so much, that everything else seemed a blur but now that my focus is on others. I am so happy to have had a chance to meet so many wonderful and amazing people. I don't need a relationship to keep me going like others I know. I need only one thing to keep me happy and its as simple as breathing. I know with each breath I take, the longer I have to enjoy the company of my friends, to make new friends, and who knows maybe even find me someone special who this time will actually want to make me a better person. When you find that relationship, hold on to it.
By the way, I am going to be up at western August 10th, so guys if you want to do something. Let a brotha know, I am gonna be there 9 days without civilization. I need some company. lol If you want to hang out, message me on myspace, leave a comment on here, aim me, or whatever. I will deeply be grateful. :o) Take care guys and galz. |
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[Jul. 31st, 2006|05:01 am] |
(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)
| ✓ I miss somebody right now. (My western buddies. :)) |
× I don't watch much TV these days. |
✓ I own lots of books. (Own them? Yes. Read them? maybe not.) |
| ✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses. |
✓ I love to play video games. |
× I've tried marijuana. |
| × I've watched porn movies. |
× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. |
✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy. |
| ✓ I curse sometimes. (I guess now its more than sometimes. lol) |
✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (I have learned a lot about myself over this past year) |
× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. |
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| Somethings that have been on my mind |
[Apr. 16th, 2006|12:36 pm] |
Wow, its been forever but I guess this needs to be written down. I always noticed after I wrote things down, my mind was clear and everything was happy. Here is an extended list of what pisses me off. :D
Pet Peeve #4 - NOT DOING JACK CRAP TO HELP PEOPLE
Ya know, I realize that I am a messy person but I also realize that I do more for the suite as far as cleaning than all 3 combined. If any of the suitemates read this, and think otherwise, than I recommend you go to a doctor and get checked up, if that doesn't work, then come to me and I will sit down with you and have a long talk about how you are crazy and then I will explain all what i have done and I will listen to the sentence or two that you have done for the suite. That may have been cruel, huh? Oh well,it needed to be said. I have cleaned the living area countless amounts of times, I have even helped cleaned a suitemate's room and used 5 of my own 13 gallon trashbags to clean it. I have taken the suite trash out more times than anyone...and ya know at first it didnt bother me but now im getting to the point where I just dont care. I try being a good suitemate and stuff and I never complain about stuff like that but i feel like i am being taken advantage of. I mean seriously, I will be cleaning and I will have suitemates just look at me while they play a game or whatever. Last semester, they would offer to help. We got 2 suitemates who would help sometimes and one who is just too "never" gonna clean attitude.
Let me repeat for the record, When i do clean the suite, I clean up my mess because i understand it may be getting kinda rough but here at the last bit of the year, i noticed i have given and given and received hardly anything in return. Last semester it wasnt that bad because it seemed like everyone was helping. Now, Its just friggin mayhem. Even if i clean up the suite and it is a HUGE difference than what it was, I get NO and I mean NO thank you or even a word of acknowledgement. If i was going to be someone's little &(*&^ then I would like to feel like I am somewhat appreciated for the work I do. So to sum it all up, I clean up after myself and others. It would just be nice to see the others have SOMEWHAT friggin iniative to help around the suite. Dang this is annoying.
Now as a counterpoint, I know the counter argument against me. I understand that I volunteer and I dont specifically ASK you to help, but seriously. I am not going to ask for something that everyone in the suite should be pitching in and helping. If you are NOT doing anything and you see me cleaning, than the non jackass thing would be to offer some help. I volunteered to clean up the suite and I even volunteered to help clean a suitemate's room because it was a nice thing to do. So even though im messy and I volunteer to help out with the suite, it still doesnt take away the fact that everyone else doesnt even ATTEMPT to help anymore. |
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[Nov. 7th, 2005|05:05 pm] |
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I know it seems like I complain a lot when i write in these things but I usually use this live journal to vent out frustrations and surprisingly, it works. I always thought that writing was stupid but I was so wrong. I would like to apologize in advance for anyone who reads this, if I hurt their feelings, but i have a hard time to do anything gradually. I will act like things are okay but I have a hard time confronting people because I dont want to hurt people. Thats why I want to write in this journal, its for me to calm down from a heckted couple of weeks.
Pet Peeve #1: Teasing
Alright, I am a guy who can take about anything in small amounts. I dont even mind when people tease me all in jokin or like to scare me to see a reaction....but for the LOVE OF ALL THAT IS HOLY, STOP BEING A JACKASS!! I am a nice person to you, why do you think it is okay for you to be a complete jackass to me? Okay, I may make fun of you because I feel like I am bombarded by everyone. When I head in my suite, I am usually the butt of most jokes. I dont mind it in small amounts but it seriously starts to get to me and it gets really friggin old. Its like me vs. everyone. Sometimes I think I make it VERY clear that i don't like it and you still like to tease me and try to scare me. I am not saying that I dont like those things but seriously, it happens way too much. If I had to put it on scale from 1-10, I would say I get picked on around a 15, and it needs to be around a friggin 3. I am so pissed right now. The whole gay jokes that some people make about me. Thats so friggin stupid. At first it was funny but now it is dumb,retarded, and childish.
People sometimes like to joke that I am the dumb one, but if you can't see when you are picking on me and i get quiet...that means stop, ok? That might be very profound but dangit, I know this entry sounds like a complaint but it is. I have went through too much of this crap. Another thing, I don't like to be scared. I don't like it, so stop trying to use me for personal entertainment to make yourself feel better. Oh my gah, people piss me off sometimes. You say you are my friend but you make it a point to do some stupid crap to me to make yourself smile and quite frankly, i am sick and I am so tired of this bullcrap. No more Mr. nice David. I am pissed, I am almost at the point of breaking. I really friggin am. So You know, just treat me like anyone else in the suite instead of using me as a personal tool to make you feel better about yourself. I try to laugh it off and smile but deep inside, i am so annoyed and i try to throw small hints that I dont like it but people take that as "okay, now we can tease him some more." F that.
Pet Peeve #2: Patronizing
Listen, I may act stupid and I may ask a lot of questions but I am not the moron that some people like to make me out to be. Why do I think this you must ask? Comments as I have heard over the past couple weeks against my major and how its CS for dumb people or whatever. Other comments such as "Don't worry David, you wouldn't understand" and if you want me to be ugly, but even joking how can you even joke like that? Gah that pisses me off, and when im playing a video game and people tell you EXACTLY WHAT TO DO EVERYTIME, like you dont know what the crap you are doing. Oh it pisses me off....man it feels good writing this...
Pet Peeve #3: People being a smart allec in class
I hate it when people think its oh so cool to talk while the teacher is talking. I kinda blocked it out in high school but start growing up and have a professional attitude about things and dont be so stupid. You are paying to be in school now, moron. Take advantage of that.
I bet this entry is uncomprehensible in some parts, but that is because my brain is just all jumpy and skittish, so I apologize for that. There is so much more to say but those things are small. These are the main three pet peeves and I listed them in most frustrating to least. So if you know me, and you still want to be good friends with me, which I hope you do, please take in account that I cant hold things such as teasing and others as well as others. I want to be respected, and I dont think I get that to be honest. I would like to think I am well liked but ya know, but I would rather have people treat me better than people like me. You would think that those two go hand in hand but they don't. If you disagree, please feel free to e-mail me or IM me and we will have a talk, if you want to talk about it face to face, i can do that too. But this whole pickin-on david all the dang time like its a new hobby is gonna stop, it will stop. |
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| There's something wrong with me.. |
[Sep. 24th, 2005|06:17 pm] |
Hey yall, its been a couple weeks since i updated but ya know...I just have been really irritable today, and I didn't know what it was...It's probably my manly PMS day or something. I dont know, no leaks here. haha :P anyway...Ya know I have been thinking and thinking hard here while in solitude in my room and I have found out some stuff about myself. Stuff that I didn't want to come to the realization to but it's true...
For the first 12 years of my life, my father was a very cold man. He meant well and he had a lot of love in his heart for people but he didn't know how to show it. A long time, i thought I was the opposite from him because I am sensitive and such but today I realized... I am just like him to a degree. I differ than him in the fact that I show love to my close friends and steph, but outside that...i am like him. I do love all my friends, and respect of what the impact that they have individually done in my life. I just need to show them that I do care and do want them to still be apart of my life. Sometimes I wonder if I am being the Dave that I used to. The David that always smiled and laughed with people and tried to make them laugh. I feel like my heart has so much just bitterness and apathy. I have become really apathetic over the past year.
For example, I have a best friend, that I just totally don't even talk to that person hardly at all, and when I mean at all...i mean like its by chance that i talk to that person. Because the person is abducted by a game, and ya know...i have this thing about being pushed away from a friendship through a game. As much I say that about my good friend, I have done that away to people in other aspects. I have not returned phone calls, I sometimes don't answer IMs, and am very black and white about things. Either I love something or really really dislike it. Something in my life is missing, I got blessing in summer, that I loved and I am still thankful for but now it seems as though my heart has changed towards people. I used to be a very caring person and now it seems as though im not as caring as I once was. I need prayer...Oh God, I need prayer...I ain't trying to cry out for attention, in fact i hate it, but I hope that I have made somewhat an impact on whoever's life that is reading this...and I hope in a positive way. I am personally very sorry for anything that I may have done to any of you to hurt your feelings or let you down. I will try on working to be a better friend,boyfriend, and a follower of God. Whenever I get in these kind of moods, I quote part of a song that goes like:
"Oh in the sadness...it's all right, it's all right"
Basically that paragraph before was all to my friends and the upcoming part is a written part to God, that i really need to relinquish out of my system, so yeah my journal is basically over now. :P
I know Lord, You have kept Your hand upon my life, and I am so sorry Lord for being the David that I want to be and not the one you chose for me to be. You have a plan for my life, Lord. I am just so stubborn sometimes, and don't want to follow it. Lord, please soften my heart to be who You want me to be. Soften my heart so I can love others and not hold grudges and be angry all the time. I love you, Lord....Thank you for protecting me and loving me, even when I'm as cold as I am right now to others and most importantly, You. |
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| Good Lordy, its been awhile. |
[Sep. 7th, 2005|01:54 pm] |
Whew...it sure has been awhile since I updated. I want to say so much but my tired body won't allow me to do so. I will just say the basic stuff, I guess. I really really really love being back at western. Its been so long since i have had this freedom and this feeling of accomplishment. I was walking down to my business law class and as I looked up in the mountains, I just knew I was home. Here are some highlights of different views and my rants on certain things...
Living in Central: Good gracious, it has been so awesome to live with danl and pete in the suite. They are great guys and it really has been fun to just hang around in the lobby and just chill. Even the new guy, Luke is a great guy and he is funny and just complies with everything we do. God surely has blessed me with such wonderful people to be apart of a suite with. The only thing is the walk to Central but its not too bad, i guess. I need the exercise to trim the happy belly.
Classes: Classes are gonna be great this year, I know for a fact I am going to do well in both my C.I.S. classes because it is interesting and this semester, i just have a sense of urgency to want to get something done. I have been just going through college....lolly-gagging around but now i want to work hard and achieve the grades, that I know I can get. I have two night classes which arent as bad as I thought.
Annoyances: Okay, I put annoyances after classes for a reason. I absolutely hate it when people think its okay to have small time chat with people when a teacher is talking. Dangit, I have A.D.D. and that is gonna severely mess with my concentration. All i want is just a fair shot to make my grade and I dont want to have an excuse of why i did bad because some girl named Trish is talking to some guy named Joe about how she wants to get drunk and make crazy monkey love to the whole Kappa Sigma fraternity. I mean seriously, college students need something better to talk about then getting drunk and being dumb. Another thing is, I just dont want to feel like im being lied to. Sometimes I think people try to hide things from me to protect me from hurting my feelings. They don't want me to be mad but I mean you dont have to put it in a direct way but there is always a tactful way to put anything. I just want the truth about things. If I ask you about your past, tell me, its okay im not gonna judge you. If there is something that i do that annoys you, then i will say im sorry for annoying you and explain what went on in my head at the time, so we can have a better understanding between us two. That is called communication and not arguing. That was directed towards anyone, just im making general references. I really truly am.
Having a girlfriend: Its been different for me, I am not used to having a girlfriend, because I have been single for such a long time. This is a whole new world to me. I am trying my best to do what I think is right, and to stay myself. So to Steph, ya know you really are a blessing to me. We may disagree or misinterpret each other but when you look at me and smile, it always seems to melt my heart again. I know you do love me and knowing that just makes me want to pinch myself to make sure i am not dreaming. Sweetheart, I promise you if you need me, I will be here and I promise I will love you for as long as God has us planned to love each other.
Goals: My short term goals is to land this co-op for our IT services. I think that would be a great opportunity and to put it on my resume. I want to join the honors frat of Phi Sigma Pi, just because i want to be apart of an academic brotherhood and the people seem really cool. Later on this year, i will be applying for an RA spot for my senior year and I hope I get it. I dont think I will jump on the band wagon too late, but its been something I have been wanting to do since I came to western my freshman year.
Thats all i can think of right now, I will try to update more than I have been doing, I love you all and I hope everything is a-otay with you guys too. :o) |
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[Aug. 16th, 2005|12:48 am] |
Well its midnight, im sleepy and gosh darnit...I dont know what to put.
I guess since its the end of the summer, I will offer my thoughts on
this summer. Yeah, I will do that... heh
The summer definately started off bad. I didn't have a job and
didn't have any transportation to go anywhere. So i was stuck at my
house with my mom all day, and if i was gonna look for jobs, I had to
go with her. That isnt fun to do to go look for jobs when someone is
telling you " dont do that, do this." I am a firm believer, if you mess
up, then that is the best way to learn. I hate it when people try to
tell me what to do on a consistent basis. I guess thats what parents
used to do before you were 15 or so but I am close to 21. I can make up
my own mind and I have my own sense. So seriously, I didnt get a job
until June 18th. I went so far without a job and it was crazy. So yeah,
if you read through my journal entries you can read more in detail but
basically...The Lord blessed me big time. I spent precious times with
Steph and I loved every second of each of those visits. The Lord
blessed me with things I needed (car and job mainly). At times this
summer, I felt like it would never end. I felt like the bond between my
friends has slowly faded. Its not their fault or anyone's. I think just
nature just took its course but I think once western comes, the bond
will grow again. I can't help but praise God, for everything He has
done for me. The main blessing definately has been Steph.
Steph, you are a truly amazing young woman and you really do mean a lot
to me. Everyday away from you, just makes me appreciate each day I am going to spend with you at western even more. I wish I could pay ya back for what you have
done in my life. I can't put into words, but sweetheart...I love you
more than I can ever explain. No matter what happens with us, I just
want you to know that you will always have a special place in my heart.
Thank you for all that you do, and I just can't believe how lucky I am.
Yeah, and she got her braces off today and she is HOTTT!! oh my
gah....yes...and i got her picture on my computer. anyways...I am
loving life, loving friends, loving an oh-so-beautiful girl in Steph,
and loving my Lord. This summer has had its ups and downs but all in
all, this long journey is coming to an end this saturday...I am ready
for western to start back up to have another new start. A new start for
me to get good grades, to live with good friends, a start on phi sigma
pi and just handlin anything that may come my way. Oh by the way, if
any of you are interested. I want to start up a bible study, so if you
are interested. post a comment or e-mail me at
davemossimo@gmail.com...or you can IM me but thats not as fun. :P well
im off to bed. peace yall. |
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[Aug. 6th, 2005|12:45 am] |
Wow...well nothing much has happened besides work, i thought the psycho guy quit but it ended up, he was in a car crash. Glad he is okay, because i woulda felt really bad to think he was a psycho and something happened. I am praying for my friend, Pete. Tomorrow, he is gonna do something that I know for a fact that is really tough to do. Say bye to someone you really love and care about. Its gonna be tough, bro...but you are strong and you can do it. I know you can. There really hasnt been much going on in my life, just i really really want to head back to western and slowly but surely, the time is approaching. This summer has been so long and its just ran its course for me. I enjoy western, I thought I would have never said that after my first day here but i absolutely love it. I am going to have the best suite around with the best guys, and I will have the best girlfriend...(sorry pete, its my opinion. :P).I wish things would smooth over for the best for everybody...on a quick sidenote/A.D.D. note, Im tired, cranky, moody...i guess my male PMS is starting. I mean uhhhhhhh....not really. heh Well, I will talk more later with something of meaning and more in depth. I am just tired and I really needed to update my journal..It sure has been awhile.
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[Jul. 25th, 2005|07:12 pm] |
| Your Kissing Purity Score: 69% Pure | 
For you, kissing isn't a casual thing
Lip to lip action makes your heart sing |
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[Jul. 22nd, 2005|12:13 am] |
Ya know, for the past couple entries I have been
talking about this "funk" i have been in, well tonight it just hit me
with more than just a funk. More like a squeezing out of my heart to
make it all good again. I uhh...I've been down and this has been an
inner conflict with myself mainly. I just want to be a good person. It
started about two weekends ago with Steph, and I was tempted and to be
honest, on the drive home I just felt so bad for thinking that way. I
mean I know some of you are probably like "yeah right", but i seriously
seriously dont want to ever fall like that. I want to be someone who
when i get married, I can look back on my life and say that I rose
above it. Goodness gracious, i really really really want to say that. I
want to be a good boyfriend, friend, son, and follower of Jesus Christ.
These things have plagued me and I never knew a conflict with this
before. I try so hard to be a good guy, I hate being a frustration to
people or annoyance. My true goal is to make people smile and laugh. I
want to be a happy person and a good man....not a man that acts like he
is good but his heart is corrupted. I think that time when i was in a
funk, my heart was slowly being corrupted by just a lot of things and
God tonight had to squeeze all those impurities out of my heart to make
me okay again.
I was just in this funk for almost two weeks,
and i felt down and just low, and God tonight picked me up and said its
okay, and He's still proud of me. I aint being cocky but thats what the
Lord does. I know He is in heaven, and I just want to put a smile on
His face after all...and so far, even though my heart has been through
pain going through this struggle. It has brought his heart happiness to
know that His son will bear His cross and keep marchin forward. If that
means I will struggle with this progressively worse for the rest of my
life until i get married to do so. Then I will cry myself to sleep
everynight to make it possible. I just want you all to know that I love
you guys...and to Steph, sweety im sorry if i have said anything to let
you down. You're really precious in my life and a wonderful blessing
God has given me. You truly do deserve a good man. I want to be that
man for you.I just want you to know that I love you...I just plan on loving you for the person you are and loving you unconditionally.
Thank you guys for listening and God bless you all....
-Dave
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[Jul. 18th, 2005|11:50 pm] |
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well, i thought i should update...i havent done it in awhile so...hehe. Well on the previous episode of my life, i was just in a funk...well i hit another road bump in life with my trunk to my car messed up. I was broke and really didnt have money to fix it but God helped a son out and my brother and I fixed it. Goodness , it sure was a blessing to have my brother help me. What else? Work is work, im still working with a psycho guy who REALLY sucks at stacking papers...my gah, how can one be so bad at something so easy. I thought I was bad but no, i feel much better after he works there now. Hmm...this Sunday, I am going to be seeing my sweety and i'm just happy to hold her for atleast one more day, i dont like being away but I mean its getting better. Western is only a month away and it feels oh so good to say that. The problem with everything is this....and this journal entry, I feel as though I am going to get in trouble...but i have to say it, it is killing me.
So recently, some friends of mine think that I am spending too much time with a girl and all that, and I know what some of you are thinkin "David, you have been whipped and you arent hanging out with your friends." First of all, I would just like to say that its really really really stinkin tough to be away from someone you love and care about so much as I do with her. I aint trying to forget anybody and I love all my friends and it just hurts to hear them say that or think that I dont want their company. The truth of the matter is sometimes I would ask what they are doing and they are off at work or with their girlfriend. I dont mind that they are at work or with their girlfriend. I understand, I really and honestly do. The thing that bothers me the most about all of this is that people say im not hanging out with friends but those same friends that say that aren't really living up to the words they are saying either. I mean, they hang out with their girlfriends everyday or close to everyday and I talk to steph on the phone, why? because I honestly do enjoy talking to her on the phone and its tough for her too, and its hard to stay away for a night but i mean honestly, you guys are doing the same thing as me.
If you disagree with me, I am begging you to IM me because this really has bothered me. I aint trying to start anything because I love you guys, I honestly and sincerely mean that. Just I can't take the criticism from people if I feel like they are doing the same thing they are criticizing me about. If you think I'm crazy, I just ask you to search yourself and try to see it where i am coming from and if not, thats okay and we can talk and I aint gonna be mad. I just want this to get worked out. I really do. It is killing me. |
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[Jul. 13th, 2005|01:50 am] |
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Well it seems as though lately, that life is beating at a humdrum pace. All I want sometimes is for this long road of summer to finally come to an end. IT has been way too long already. Sometimes it feels as though the summer is moving fast, but most of the time...i feel as though western will never come. Don't get me wrong, this summer has been a blessing to me in a lot of ways. If it wasn't for me getting a job this usmmer, man I woulda been screwed big time when i showed up to western. Right now, whats going on isn't much. I am heading to my favorite italian restaurant later on today with some good pals, so thats good. I need to get out and do stuff, instead of working. Its healthy for the soul. heh :P Speaking of health, Steph isn't feeling that well right now, and I hope she will make a quick recovery.
Ya know recently, I have been feeling like something has been wrong with me. I don't know what it is, but I just been feeling down. I can't put my finger on it...I just need to get out of this funk so hopefully tomorrow will help, that will help and getting my next paycheck will work wonders. Got some bills to pay, and my car, i want it to get looked at before i go to western to make sure things will be okay. So, the same thing wont happen to me like it happened with my piece of poo taurus. Gah, I hate ford..so after this paycheck, be almost 4 more weeks and then back to college, and praise JESUS we are almost done.
So another thing is,I havent gone to church in over a month, and boy do i need to. I feel as though my relationship with Him has just became weaker in general, and thats not good. I need my Lord in every step, I take. Every breath of air, that circulates through my lungs, I want to keep Him first in my life. I think am just focusing too much on myself and not enough on God. That might be the problem. I still listen to sermons online but its good to be in God's house and praise Him too.
Soon, I will get out of this funk. These things can't keep me down for too long, as long as i am working..praisin God...hanging with friends...and of course, talking to my sweet sexy girl. Life will be okay. All in all, there is nothing to be down about. I am just in a funk, kinda. |
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[Jul. 12th, 2005|12:54 am] |
hmmm I really don't know what to write...i just want to say Lord, I ask you to humble me...use me to be an extention of Your hand...Its been so tough sometimes, Lord. But I praise you for keeping me safe through everything and for guiding me where you see fit. There has been so much drama going on lately with all kinds of stuff and I just pray that you keep your presence over them and me. I hope they realise that You are there to help. Humble me, Lord....where I won't be prideful enough not help others. Let me put me aside and let the light shine through. So here is a song I have been thinking about....that I just want to share. heh
Third Day - Come on back to me
You’ve been hiding now for so long
Never understanding why
Running far away from the truth
And all along chasing after lies
I have loved you from the beginning
Long before you knew my name
Even though you’ve broken my heart
I’ll love you just the same
I’ll love you anyway
Never mind your worries
Never mind your fears
They can only take you far from me
When you feel there’s nowhere
Left for you to turn
Well, I got all you want
And everything you need
Come on back to me
Do you believe in second chances
Or in a love that never fades
Put your faith in what you can’t see
Just put your hand in mine
And I’ll show you the way
So yeah....love you guys, goodnight.. |
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[Jul. 11th, 2005|07:55 am] |
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So, right now its close to midnight and I am still up. I should be
going to bed but I just feel like I should just get some things off of
my chest here...
First of all, I would just like to say that man I really have met the
most amazing girl and I am so happy and lucky to call her my
girlfriend. I really do appreciate all she has done for me and her
heart is just so pure and she really does have good intentions. I
really am one lucky guy, and this past weekend, it just helped me
realize how lucky I really am. I would go into what we did but that is
a later journal entry. I truly can't remember the last time I have ever
been this happy, and just the thought of her, just leaves me in awe of
how truly amazing she is to me. She really has done so many things for
me, just by seeing her smile and hearing her laugh has worked wonders
in my life. I am not very poetic with my words as others, but i do know
my heart and I do know that she is all that I can ever want in a
relationship and much much more. The Lord truly has blessed me with
meeting such an incredible woman and I praise Him for sending her into
my life.
Second of all, I just want all my friends to know that I havent
abandoned any of you or been wanting to hang out, just this summer has
been crazy. So many blessings have came in my life, and I am just left
in awe of how much the Lord has blessed me this summer but yet, its
hard for me to appreciate all of them at times because of the problems
I have at home. My pride sometimes doesnt want to write about problems
at home because I dont want to come off as just some person looking for
sympathy, but the main thing I want is just to go back to western. I
just want everything to be okay and where I can live life on my own and
if i make a mistake, I want God to be the one to pick me up, dust the
dirt off and lead me back on with my life. Its tough for me to enjoy
the summer because I miss Steph so much, my friends are usually with
their girlfriends or working, and probably most of all are all these
home problems. I dont want to get into what these problems are because
its a big long story.
and finally, speaking of drama...things really just want to go back to
normal. I have a feeling when I get back to western, its gonna be a
definate wonderful time in my life but yet a trying time because there
are gonna be some obstacles to overcome. I am definatly gonna miss my
bro, Jason this semester and I really do hope he comes back. We built
up a good friendship this past year, and I just want to see him in our
suite come Spring of 06. Another thing, is just I get worried over my
friends and I know someone who is gonna be pulled away from someone
they really love during the school year and bro, I know its gonna be
hard but God has a plan, that is what I have been telling myself and
what the good book has been telling me this whole summer. I will be
praying for you and her and I love you like a brother and if you want
to talk, I'm here.
Those are the main three things that are on my mind right now...Its
time to go to bed. I am super super tired. Nite everyone. I will update
soon. :) |
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[Jul. 5th, 2005|12:22 am] |
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Woah, well I am sorry for not writing in here lately. I have been
working mainly and just tryin to relax on my days off. I got so much to
say but I will try to condense it as much as possible. I will start
with July 4th. So, yeah...I woke up and I went to work and it was only
for 2 and a half hours! HECK YEAH! That's right, I was excited. I went
over to chill with my 2 brothas and a new...umm..sister from da hood?
Sure, she's my gangsta sista. :P I don't know anyway. I had a great
time with them. I had some of pete's grandma's lemonade...and I just
got to say one thing. You havent tasted heaven until you tasted this
lemonade. Her lemonade and Jason's mom's sweet tea is absolutly
amazing. Seriously, I know some of you are probably thinking I am
sucking up but it truly is amazing. So anyway, later on that night I
saw some fireworks and it was fun. I then left there, talked to an
amazingly awesome girl on the phone and then headed to bed.
Well, what about today? I worked like a dog from 9am-7pm. It was
downright exhausting. There is this guy at work that probably said 5
words in over 10 hours total. This guy was a mixture between a child
rapist, an old man, batman, a psycho, and Mr. Ed. Now if you can mix
all those up, You have this guy's face. So yeah, that and he totally
blew at his job. We are talking like he didn't stack the paper's side
by side to each other. HOW FRIGGIN HARD IS IT TO STACK PAPERS SIDE BY
SIDE? wow...so then i come home and some idiot hit a power poll with
their car. I mean I hope they are okay, but yeah....So i came home to
candles...it was like a romantic evening with....myself. :( So then i
talked to steph steph, on the phone and GUESS WHAT?
SHE IS COMING TO WESTERN!
WOOT THERE IT IS! :D Who gets to spend time with the most
amazing girl ever? This guy! :D That really made my day after spending
8 hours in the devil's armpit. With all that said, I am going to bed
with a smile on my face because tomorrow I will be hanging out with the
fellas...and on friday-sunday of this week. I will be able to hold my
love in my arms and smother her in kisses...oh life is great. :) I will
be hopefully posting more this week. I will get back in my habit! take
care everyone.
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[Jun. 19th, 2005|07:52 pm] |
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01.) Name:: Dave
02.) Middle Name:: Eugene
03.) DOB:: 01/31/1985
04.) Age:: 20
05.) Location:: Gastonia, NC
06.) Eye Color:: Hazel-Green
07.) Hair Color:: Dookie-Brown. :P
08.) Hair Length:: short, with a cow lick on my right side
09.) Height:: 6'0"
10.) Shoe Size:: 11
11.) Glasses or Contacts:: Glasses, and im proud. :D
12.) Braces:: nope
13.) Single or Taken:: Oh i am gladly taken! ;)
14.) Bad Habits:: hmm...i have them. :)
15.) Fears:: losing someone i care about
16.) Screen Name: Polymossimal, thedaveflave
::_**_:: School ::_**_::
17.) Where Do You Go to School:: Western Carolina
18.) Whats Your School Mascot:: Catamount
19.) Whats Your School Colors:: Purple and Gold
20.) Whats Your Favorite Subject:: Communication/CIS stuff/and being coached by steph.
21.) Whos Your Favorite Teacher:: Mr. Gordon
22.) what subject do they teach:: Psychology
23.) Who Sits Next to You In Math Class:: Hmm, i havent had math class in a year and it was telecom people
::_**_:: Love Life ::_**_::
24.) Do You Have a Boyfriend/ Girlfriend:: oh yes
25.) If So, What’s Their Name:: nStephanie Ann Williford
26.) If So, How Long Have You Been Together:: going on 3 days. Woot!!
27.) Do You Have a Crush:: mmmmmmmmmhmmmm!!
28.) Do They Know:: *rolls eyes* Yep
29.) Have You Ever Broken Someone’s Heart:: not that i know of
30.)Have you ever had your heart broken?:: Yep and it SUCKS
::_**_:: Favorites ::_**_::
31.) Animal:: dogs or polar bears
32.) Color:: navy blue and orange
33.) Person:: Uhh...I dont have a favorite person. :)
34.) Subject:: CIS
35.) Season:: Fall/Winter
36.) Holiday:: Christmas
37.) Hobby:: talking on the phone, :P hanging with friends, video games, watching sports and wouldnt mind playing any. even though i suck
38.) Sport:: Football, all the way, and panthers WILL BE IN THE SUPER BOWL! FORGET THE EAGLES BABY!
39.) Feeling:: The feeling with that person you really care about, where all your worries and fears are cast outside and the only thing that you can think about is "wow, this person is amazing."
40.) Saying:: Your silly, Steph is hott
41.) Word:: spank, take the connotation out of it and its just a fun word to say
42.) Month:: January
43.) Clothing:: string bikinis.. jk. lol
44.) Jewelry:: i need a watch, dang im broke
45.) Food:: Chicken Alfredo, oh dear goodness it is great
46.) Snack:: Man, wheat thins or Bold Chex Mix
::_**_:: Friends ::_**_::
47.) Best:: Hmm.... probably Pete, Jason, Steph ( :* ), Andrew, Kristen, and Jesus of course
48.) Daringest:: Jason...definately Jason
49.) Funniest:: Pete and Jason with tag team effort, its funny
50.) Tallest:: AJ, that guy is friggin tall
51.) Shortest:: Steph Steph. :)
52.) Loudest:: Me, or Jason
53.) Shyest::Steph, but thats what makes her so cute
54.) Smartest: Pete or Danl
55.) Blondest:: i dont know that many blondes... probably Jennifer, danl's fiance
56.) Craziest:: Jimmy, there are some reasons that i cant say. lol
57.) Nicest:: Steph, but second place would be a tie between Jessica and Jason's Mom.
58.) Sweetest:: Steph, she is like sweeter than brown's sweet tea
59.) Weirdest:: Danl, i love the guy but... i mean he dressed up as a girl and walked around the uc lawn
60.) Flirtiest:: EASY!!! Kristen Michelle King, DANG YOU FLIRT with all kinds of peeps.
::_**_:: Have You Ever ::_**_::
61.) Had a Wish Come True:: yes
62.) Had a Dream Come True:: yes
63.) Broken a Body Part:: yes
64.) Fallen in Love:: yes
65.) Done Something You Regret:: sure have
66.) Tripped and Fell in Public:: yep
67.) Sang in Public:: yes.
68.) Cried in Public:: yes
69.) Kissed Someone Besides Family:: yes
70.) Been in a Car Crash:: yes
::_**_:: The Last ::_**_::
71.) Thing You Did Before Getting on the Computer:: I had dinner and cleaned the room up some
72.) Person You Yelled at:: Dad
73.) Person You Hugged:: My dad
74.) Person You IMed:: Andrew
75.) Time You Cleaned Your Room:: yesterday
76.) Song You were Listening to:: Long Slow Kisses - by some random country fella
77.) TV Show You Watched:: Sports Center
78.) Movie You Watched:: Team America
79.) Time You went to the Movies:: To see the Longest Yard, gah that movie was great.
80.) Time You Cried:: this past saturday
81.) You Took a Shower:: This morning
::_**_:: This OR That ::_**_::
82.) Coke or Pepsi:: Pepsi
83.) Tall or short:: tall
84.) Flowers OR Candy:: candy
85.) Math or English:: math
86.) Blink 182 OR Sugarcult:: Blink 182
87.) Mickey OR Minnie:: Mickey
88.) Middle School OR High School::High school
89.) Boyfriend OR Girlfriend:: girlfriend
::_**_:: Word Association ::_**_::
91.) bead:: hair
92.) bed:: sleep
93.) Sexy:: :: Stephanie Williford....mmhmm...
94.) phone:: 2 hours
95.) tough:: stuff
96.) neato :: speedo?
97.) leather:: jacket
98.) weird:: me
99.) so:: good
100.) easy:: breezy, beautiful cover... uhh next question
101.) test:: failed
102.) nerd:: grape or strawberry flavored. :D |
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[Jun. 19th, 2005|02:13 pm] |
| You Think Michael Jackson Is Guilty | 
Q: Why did Pepsi sign up Michael Jackson for their ads?
A: Because he likes the taste of a new generation. |
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[Jun. 19th, 2005|01:40 am] |
okay so greatest weekend ever!
Friday = got a job
Sunday = saw my dad for the first time this year.
and Saturday....
A Beautiful Day with a Beautiful Girl
Wow, let me tell you!! talk about one of the most awesome days ever, so I woke up Saturday morning and I forgot to tell Stephanie something so I called her the next morning and woke her up (I'm sorry. :P) So it was close to 10 but I mean it was the weekend, who would blame her. :P Anyways, we just randomly made the decision to go meet in the middle and see each other. It was like "you doing anything? no? wanna meet each other?" So, we did and we ended up in lexington, NC. There was a traffic jam before it and it KILLED me, waited 45 minutes, dang i was ticked but not for long because when i saw her, everything went away. Now its time for me to go off on a little tangent...
First off, I would like to praise God for sending her in my life. She truly is awesome and amazing to me. I havent been this happy in a looooooooooooooooooooooooonnnggg time, last time i was this happy was when i got saved and i mean...wow, both times when I got saved of course, and yesterday...I can feel that God has blessed me. I know he blessed me these past 2 months with the opportunity of meeting such an amazing young woman who makes me smile. After yesterday, I am just proud to call her my girlfriend and gah, im lucky cause she is so hott! :P and wonderful....yeah...ok im silly, on to the rest of the day.
So we get there and we head to the park and walk around and just have lots of fun just spending time and enjoying the scenery. It was surprisingly nice there and wasnt raining like it was in charlotte. Anyways, we then we to go eat at no other city than Welcome. You can tell we were in the boonies of north carolina but hey, it was fun and tried out popcorn shrimp, oh its mm mm good too. While out on the roads we happened to see streets such as Random Lane, Center Street, Petrea Street (uh oh! :P), and of course the city of Welcome. So yeah, we drove around for a little bit and headed back to the park, this time walking on the nature trail and then time to head home, i only spent 6 hours with her but it felt like 6 minutes. Time flew by yet again, if this keeps up...than western is gonna seem so fast. So yeah, this is a song that comes to mind now. lol :D Check it out, homies.
Everybody by Sister Hazel
You are so sexy my love
You got me trippin' over my tongue
And I can't say what I mean but I mean it when I say
That I fell so hard for you that it broke my heart in two
Now I'm wrapped in black and blue
You know I'm crazy 'bout you
Should I take a chance
Or should I sit and wonder you
I wanna tell everybody - everybody
That you're so much more
Than they've ever seen before
I wanna tell everybody - everybody
If they touched your hand
Then they'd never wanna let you go
Like a junkie to a rush
I'd trade my momma for your touch
Oh wait that might just be too much
Well I'd do anything but that
You are so tempting my dear
You strip away my useless fears
No you don't care that I'm weird
And that's amazing
As you walk on by
Oh I - I sit and wonder of you
Spinning around like nobody's watching
Nobody else but me
So far beyond my imagination
If they could only see |
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